I woke up yesterday feeling as if the past two weeks of rage, fury and complete exhaustion never happened. It was hard to imagine myself ever having the energy again to clean my house or tp catch up on laundry. Would my daughter ever get a home cooked meal again? I didn't think so. It was also hard to imagine that I'd ever enjoy being a mother again.
But amazingly, I went to bed two nights ago and woke up the following morning feeling like a different person. My daughters screechy, high pitched voice sounded sweet and young and when she came in my room (like she does every morning) I didn't want to pull the covers over my head. I had energy and had big plans for the day. I felt happy and patient. I was energetic and productive and excited to talk about it. I did laundry and completed Ada's nursery (almost 3 months post partum), washed windows and did dishes. My home was a home to me again and I felt great.
So how did this happen? I certainly didn't all of sudden catch up on sleep so why didn't I feel tired anymore? or edgy? or impatient? or angry? or depressed?
I did get my period today. Are my hormones so out of whack that when I'm premenstrual I turn into a crazy lady? I'd like to find out so I plan on blogging my feelings (emotionally and physically) over the next 30 days. Let's see if we come full circle.
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