Day two was another productive day. I woke up feeling tired because I didn't sleep at all but I didn't feel painfully exhausted. I was able to get up right away and the screech didn't break my brain. I enjoyed music class with my daughter and although I did find myself losing patience with Hannah it was only because she was up my butt all day. I also found that I handled her whining and defiance with some control and free of a scary anger that may damage a small girls self esteem and spirit.
When I have the energy I try to accomplish as much as possible because that energy will leave as quickly as it came. Today I cleaned Hannah's room and organized her drawers, cleaned the bathroom and washed the shower curtains. My husband did the dishes which was helpful and he also cooked dinner and took Hannah out for errands. At the end of the day I feel sleep deprived and tired but I also feel accomplished. I have a clean house, clean clothes and sleeping children. Ada, the baby, is sleeping in her crib for the first time so maybe tired mama will get some sleep. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Husband will be back at work.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
My First Day
I woke up yesterday feeling as if the past two weeks of rage, fury and complete exhaustion never happened. It was hard to imagine myself ever having the energy again to clean my house or tp catch up on laundry. Would my daughter ever get a home cooked meal again? I didn't think so. It was also hard to imagine that I'd ever enjoy being a mother again.
But amazingly, I went to bed two nights ago and woke up the following morning feeling like a different person. My daughters screechy, high pitched voice sounded sweet and young and when she came in my room (like she does every morning) I didn't want to pull the covers over my head. I had energy and had big plans for the day. I felt happy and patient. I was energetic and productive and excited to talk about it. I did laundry and completed Ada's nursery (almost 3 months post partum), washed windows and did dishes. My home was a home to me again and I felt great.
So how did this happen? I certainly didn't all of sudden catch up on sleep so why didn't I feel tired anymore? or edgy? or impatient? or angry? or depressed?
I did get my period today. Are my hormones so out of whack that when I'm premenstrual I turn into a crazy lady? I'd like to find out so I plan on blogging my feelings (emotionally and physically) over the next 30 days. Let's see if we come full circle.
But amazingly, I went to bed two nights ago and woke up the following morning feeling like a different person. My daughters screechy, high pitched voice sounded sweet and young and when she came in my room (like she does every morning) I didn't want to pull the covers over my head. I had energy and had big plans for the day. I felt happy and patient. I was energetic and productive and excited to talk about it. I did laundry and completed Ada's nursery (almost 3 months post partum), washed windows and did dishes. My home was a home to me again and I felt great.
So how did this happen? I certainly didn't all of sudden catch up on sleep so why didn't I feel tired anymore? or edgy? or impatient? or angry? or depressed?
I did get my period today. Are my hormones so out of whack that when I'm premenstrual I turn into a crazy lady? I'd like to find out so I plan on blogging my feelings (emotionally and physically) over the next 30 days. Let's see if we come full circle.
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